Uncovering Pamela

Hi everyone!  Most of you know that I’ve been struggling with my car for a while. Every time I get one batch of repairs paid off, it’s time for another round with the mechanic.  And every time I’d take the car to a mechanic, it seemed like something else would go wrong. As I recently paid off a ton in repairs, and knew more service would be eventual  in my future, I decided enough was enough. It was time to bite the bullet and get a new car (excuse me a moment while I shudder at the thought of having a [ ... ]

Please excuse my rant. Maybe I’ve just been exhausted from lack of sleep (have been having a harder time than usual sleeping lately), under a lot of stress at work, or who knows what else, but people are pissing me right the hell off lately. Supposedly, this is the season for giving and sharing. But it seems like people are more inconsiderate than ever. In the span of a week, I’ve had two incidents (probably more – these just stick out) where people have been completely rude.  Perhaps they’re just so wrapped up in their own worlds or the idea that no [ ... ]

On the eve before Thanksgiving, I wanted to pop in and say hi.  I’m still alive.  Not doing so well on the eating front…which probably explains my absence in posting.  I think visiting the district attorney’s office about my brother threw me into a tailspin that I haven’t quite recovered from. It’s been eight years, but the holidays are still hard without him.  It gets easier, but he’s never far from my thoughts, and at times I find myself in a bit of a funk for seemingly no reason. Then I realize why I probably am.  Because I miss him.  At [ ... ]

Hola, folks.  It’s your long-lost friend, Pamela. I’m here. I’m alive.  To say I’ve been struggling lately is probably an understatement.  I’m sure it comes as no surprise to you all considering the very few number of posts I’ve written lately and the tone that most of them have held.  Emotionally, I’ve been a basket-case.  Physically, I’ve not stuck to plan at all.  The way I’ve been craving yummy foods makes me feel like a drug addict.  But I’ve written about that plenty of times in the past, so won’t rehash it again today.  I’ve gained weight again, and [ ... ]

Hi all. Sorry it’s been so long since I’ve written.  I’ve started about a hundred blog posts and then gave up in the middle and then just gave up period.  Stopped even trying to write.  Because, honestly, to write on here meant that I actually had to think about things that are going on with me.  And well, better to live like Scarlett O’Hara, right? But I thought I would pop in and say hi and let you all know that I’m okay.  I’m hanging in here.  Just trying to make it day by day.  I have good days and bad [ ... ]

I know it’s been a while since I’ve written.  I did really well my first week back on plan and lost 3.6 pounds.  I have, however, probably gained it back by now. It’s been a rough week. I’ve been in one seriously hellish funk of which I can’t seem to find my way out.  I’m just exhausted mentally and emotionally and seem to have been using my heart and mind and yes, even my body (though not literally) as punching bags.  Have been feeling really overwhelmed lately by things I can’t control, both having to do with myself and with my world [ ... ]