Well, in the interest of being honest with myself, I had a mini binge Saturday night. We won’t even go into all that I ate. I guess after my undeserved gain last week and seeing that I was gaining again this week, I decided to make sure that I would deserve my gain this week. <SIGH> I hate that I did it, but I did get right back on plan again today.
I’m terrified to see what the scale holds on Tuesday. But, whatever it is, I will go on from there, as I’ve seen much worse numbers before.
This is just one more example of how I will struggle with this my entire life. But it’s further proof that I CAN bounce back from it and get right back on program. Before, I would say hey, I shot today to hell, why stop there when I can blow the whole week? And then proceed to berate myself nonstop about what a horrible person I am. I hate that I overate last night, but I’ve learned that it does not define me as a person.
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God, I really needed to read this one! This is probably why I can’t sleep!
Okay, confession time… We went to dinner tonight at CiCi’s Pizza which is a buffet. You can’t imagine how much I ate. One would have thought that I hadn’t eaten in a week AND that was going to be my very last meal.
I really, really over did it. To the point I was literally sick. I went to the bathroom to wash my hands after we ate and I honestly thought about making myself vomit. That’s just how horrible I felt. Mentally and physically!
In fact, it’s been 6 hours since we ate and I’m still feeling stuffed and nauseated!
Thanks for reminding me that it did happen, but that was today. Tomorrow is a new day and that it does not define me as a person.
I am so glad I found you in this great big internet world!
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