Okay, people…the ship is going down and I’m sending out an SOS.  I don’t know what my deal has been over the past month.  I’ve stuck so diligently to the weight watchers plan for the past year that my recent struggles are really getting to me.  It’s like I’m rebelling or something.  I know that perhaps I have been too strict on myself.  For the most part, I looked at sticking to my points like someone else would look at sticking to the law.  I considered it a crime to go over my points.  Don’t get me wrong, I did use my flex points and happily (although was afraid to use too many of them).  So, I think my subconscious is protesting.  I go grocery shopping with other people often and it gets frustrating after a while watching them.  They may look at a shelf and see a new item and say “yummy,” and just grab it and drop it in the basket.  It gets tiring having to check and double-check the nutritional information on every box and every package.  It gets tiring putting stuff back.

A lot of the time I look at my points like I would money.  It’s a budget, and some things are just too expensive for my points pocket.  I hate that other people can just eat whatever they want and never gain a pound.  They’re lucky.  I look at the box on the shelf and feel my shirt start getting tighter.  I refuse to do it though.  I refuse to give in to the curious little devil on my shoulder.  I won’t give up.