I lied to you in January when I came to visit you.  I’m sorry.  It wasn’t intentional, just a spontaneous reaction to my embarrassment.

We were standing in a grocery store and there was a People magazine on the stand next to us.  The headline proclaimed “Half Their Size.”  You asked if I had lost enough to be half my size, or something similar, and I lied.  “Yes” just kind of came out.  I was taken by surprise, and didn’t know what to say.  I guess I was too embarrassed to admit that I’d lost about 145 pounds and still wasn’t half my size.

You could probably tell just by the look on my face and the fact that I didn’t expand on my “yes” that I was lying, but I was glad that you let it go.  It’s bothered me ever since, so I thought I would come clean.

I’m still not quite half my weight, and I’m okay with that, because I’m proud of what I’ve accomplished.  My starting weight still humiliates me, but I know that a lot of factors went into that and that it doesn’t make me less of a person (no smart comments about how much “more” of a person I actually was).    I weighed a lot, but I was still me. 

I’m pretty darn close, though.  I only need to lose 8.1 pounds to be there.  And I will do it.

So, I’m sorry.  I hope you’ll forgive me.