You know what they say when people disappear or stop posting in the weight-loss blogging world – that things are not going well or that they’ve fallen off the wagon.
In my case, both would be true.
I really don’t know what my deal is lately. I’ve completely gone back to my old ways. Granted, my old binging ways are tempered a teensy bit and involve a great deal more fruits and veggies, but they still consist of consuming massive quantities of calories without thinking about it first.
I think I’ve been a little depressed lately, too, for some reason – hence the not blogging so much. In fact, I think that that might be playing into the lack of self-control where food is concerned. I like to eat. Eating gives me pleasure. I feel down, so I eat. And Voila! A 3.5 pound gain on the scale. I’m getting perilously close to that number on the scale that I swore I’d never see again. And dammit, I won’t! I refuse!
And I honestly don’t know where this depression is coming from. I’m really trying to work on it, though. Did anyone else watch The Biggest Loser last night? Man, quite a few scenes hit me pretty hard. Things that Tara, Nicole, and several of the other contestants had to say really struck home with me.
I do have one thing to really look forward to. I just bought a plane ticket to go visit two of my bestest buds in California. They live near Los Angeles, but I’m flying in/out of San Diego and we hope to hit San Fran, too. Talk about a great experience for someone who’s never been farther west than Wichita, Kansas. All of my previous trips have been to the East Coast. But all of that is just icing on the cake to getting to spend time with such good friends.
I’m going in May, and am so excited! Right now, we’re trying to figure out what all we’re going to do while I’m there.
Hope you all are doing better than me, and thank you for sticking with me while I figure this stuff out!
Yeah, definitely agree about the whole absent blogger thing in the weight loss community. Things will get better though, they always do
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and depression is a sneaky thing, too.
insidious.
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Please, please, please figure it out. Don’t stop trying, or blogging. Don’t gain it all back like I did.
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Hello my dear friend Pamela. I’ve noticed you haven’t been blogging, and as one who knows, that isn’t a good sign. I’ve missed you!
Okay, I totally understand what you’re saying. A little down so let’s eat and feel good. Been there done that my entire life.
Here’s the deal. Eat and gain weight, more depression, eat more, gain more and even more depression. It’s a vicious cycle. You’ve got to stop this in it’s tracks…RIGHT NOW.
Think about how far you’ve come, how happy you feel when you weigh less. Think about what an incredible difference it makes in your life.
Pamela, you’re so beautiful, inside and out. I really want you to be okay.
Does your insurance cover any therapy? Most insurances do these days. At least a limited number of visits a year. Just a couple visits with a therapist has made a world of difference in my attitude and my life. Check it out and see what they say. Also, if you do go to see a therapist or counselor, try to get a reference from someone you know and trust.
I’m reading a little book that might help you. It’s called Ten Prayers God Always Says Yes To by Anthony De Stefano. Great book, and I bet it’ll make a huge difference in your life. It’s a fast read and entertaining. It can be life changing.
Take care my friend. I’ll keep praying for you (and I’m serious).
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You’ll get out of your slump when you’re ready, the important thing is you’re not giving up!
I just don’t have the knack for inspirational comments that some of these other people do, but I’m glad you posted again, and hope you will do so more often. Anything I can do to help you back on track, let me know.
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I just can across your blog and really like it. I lost 70 pounds last year and due to life stuff and depression I gained 40 back.
I back on track now and hope to stay that way. Thanks for sharing, it helps to know we are not alone.
Pamela-
I just discovered your blog a couple of months ago and found it so inspiring how you made such a dramatic, healthy change in your life. These last couple of weeks it was clear that you were struggling and I have to admit, I have been worried about you. Please don’t give in to this depression! Remember how strong you are to have made it this far. Get professional help, look at old pictures, try to remember how it felt when you were carrying around another one of you! You can do this! There are lots of people out there rooting for you. Please take good care of yourself.
Shannon
Yes, Pammykins, I agree with these helpful folks. You could get professional help… or you could just come hang out with Riley, who will call you Sexy and mean it every time. Riley will also cook for you, good healthy meals, because you know she can’t eat out at restaurants much anymore
Seriously though… I hate that you are feeling depressed. I think you know I understand.
And we can’t wait to see you!
Don’t stop blogging, Pam! We miss you too much when you’re not around.
Recognising depression is the first step to overcoming it. Talk to your doctor…. A good Vit B supplement is helpful when you have a mild case. I can give you the name of a very effective Vit B product, if you want.
I know you will pull yourself out of this slump!
How exciting to be going to California to visit your girlfriends! That is something to look forward to, for sure!
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Hope you get to feeling better. I’m sure visiting friends will help. Your trip sounds great. Hope you got your hike in today. I know what you mean about it making you feel better. Glad your dad was ok.
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