My weekend wasn’t the best, yet I still consider it a major victory for me.
Saturday was mixed. On one hand, I ate like a starving woman at an all-you-can-eat buffet. On the other hand, I took advantage of the beautiful weather and got back out to my favorite hiking location for the first time in months (I’m not a hot-weather kind of girl).
Not only did I get out and walk, but I also walked at least two miles and did the intermediate trail instead of the easy one! I was pretty proud of myself. It was a gorgeous day. Perfect weather.
And while my eating really blew on Saturday, I actually tracked all of my points today!!!! Can you believe it? All of them! I did good, guys! I only went one point over my daily allotment (which, of course, has increased quite a bit due to my recent weight gain).
Unfortunately, I went to sleep with a sore throat and stuffy nose Saturday night and woke up not feeling too much better, so today has been mostly a stay in and veg kind of day. I guess the two days balance out into a perfect day. ;o) I am hoping that the ickiness is merely allergies, though. Keep your fingers crossed.
I’m not looking forward to heading back to work tomorrow. In fact, I think that it should be illegal for weekends to go by so fast! Things have been kind of rough in that department lately and with me still not feeling tip-top, I’m not too hopeful for an enjoyable day. It could surprise me, though.
Now, a mental health update. As you can imagine, my weight gain is wreaking havoc with my attitude and self-esteem. The medicine the doctor put me on to try and control my anxiety and panic isn’t helping a great deal. At least I don’t feel that it is. God only knows – maybe it is and it would be that much worse without it. One thing I do know is that now that I’m finally off of the Zoloft, I have felt my passion – for my interests, for life itself – returning. I guess it has become an either-or type of situation.
Anyway, I’ve made it through one day and I can make it through a second. I give all the credit to you all.
Hi Pamela. The walking trail looks really beautiful. I hate the hot weather too. It’s still hot here and I can’t wait for it to be over.
Completely understand about the weight gain messing with your head – my agoraphobia is much worse now I’ve put on weight.
At least all your feelings aren’t dulled anymore with meds. It makes a huge difference to be able to feel real enjoyment in something again. A really positive step which shows you you’re making real progress.
Sounds like you’re back on track!
Best wishes,
Bearfriend xx
Here’s to a great week ahead. Oh, and take credit for YOUR victories. We are all just providing a little support – you are doing the real work.
Yay for victories! Sometimes, a little recharging in nature can be so therapeutic.
It seems we’re living parallel lives, I suffer from depression and take Effexor, with a lot of weight gain and very little chance of taking it off again unless I stop taking meds, which isn’t going to happen because………..well, i need it. I completely understand what you’re going through and will stay in closer touch with this blog to watch your progress. Don’t give up! The struggle to get through the hard times make the great ones even better.
Hi Pamela…I recently stumbled across your blog and love it! Yay for your victories! Keep it up! The hike looks beautiful!