I’m Still Alive

Thank you for all the get well wishes!  They meant a lot!

As you can see, I am still alive! I made it through the swine flu.  It took me about a week to get through the worst of it, but even now, a couple of weeks later, I’m still not feeling 100%.  My cough is gradually disappearing – it’s practically nothing now – but I still get tired extremely easily and I’ve been fighting a sore throat this week.  I have so much drainage (TMI, I know) in my throat that that might be the cause of the soreness.  If it doesn’t get better, I’ll have to go back to the doctor.  Luckily, my parents are still flu-free.

I still have a job and haven’t been written up for going over my vacation days – that I know of.  My boss did say that she talked to the head of HR and explained my situation, but I won’t find out until my next review (next summer) whether it will affect my evaluation or not.

Unfortunately, on the weight front, mine just keeps creeping (skyrocketing?) up.  I’ve been in a rough, rough place for the past several months and getting the swine flu just dropped me right over the edge (some may say on my head).    It’s sad, because I’m finding myself in a very familiar place of not wanting to get together with family and friends.  The weight gain is embarrassing.  But ah, I’m sure some of you are familiar with that feeling.  If only relosing the weight were as easy regaining the weight.  I’m a bit disgusted with myself (a bit?!).

On a happier note, today is my dad’s 60th birthday!  I’m so happy for him.  His birthday is especially meaningful to my mom and I because of his chronic epilepsy.  You may remember me writing about it before, but we have had several scary moments because of his epilepsy over the years (including ER and ICU visits).  My mom and I were talking about it on Sunday and she told me that several years ago he said he didn’t think he would ever make it to 60.  I’m so thankful he was wrong.  Yup, it’s a pretty special day for a pretty special guy.

I’ve thought of posting on here often over the past few weeks, but I just haven’t really had much to say, nor the energy with which to say it.  Hopefully I’ll be able to beat whatever it is that’s tearing me down soon.