So while that statement is pretty obvious, especially considering I regained over 80 lbs in a little over a year, sometimes reminders of that fact come back and slap you in the face.
When I was on Weight Watchers for the two years that I lost the great majority of my weight, I wasn’t perfect as far as what I was eating, but I was perfectly on plan, perfectly within my points.
The past two weeks, I’ve been perfect in that way.
Today, I wasn’t. I caved. I’m here to admit it.
I’ve been having a really hard time sleeping lately and my anxiety level has increased quite a bit this week. I’m not sure why. I’ve always heard that exercise is supposed to help that. At least not yet for me.
I went to bed around 5:45 this morning and woke up at about 9:30. I laid there and tossed and turned for quite a while and realized I kind of felt a little hungry and really wanted to eat, but I was determined to fight it. Well, like I said, I caved. And I ate way more than I intended to – especially since I was technically supposed to be asleep and hadn’t counted on eating anything at this point in the day.
I counted everything and have added it to my tracker. I also hadn’t used very many flex points for the week, so had plenty to cover it (with quite a few left over, plus all of my activity points), but it’s the principle of the thing. I’m not quite mad at myself, not quite disappointed, I’m not sure what I am. I guess I just thought I’d fess up. I’ve already adjusted what I’m going to take to work tonight for dinner to try and lessen the damage a bit.
Talk about a never-ending battle.
I do know that there are a couple of things going on this weekend that I’m somewhat stressed over, so that may have something to do with this. But I’m not going to keep beating myself up over it. It’s done. It’s counted. I’m moving on. Now I just gotta get through the weekend.
I guess now I’m going to try AGAIN to get some more sleep. I have only 2 hrs now until I have to be up for work. It’s going to be another long night.
Never-ending battle? Ain’t that the damned truth!
It’s a bit disheartening to suffer setbacks like that, but if you’re anything like me, something like that may have forced you to backslide a lot farther in the bad ol’ days. Celebrate the fact that we’ve come far enough to recognize when this kind of thing rears up and snaps at our heels… and now we have the strength and determination to not let it take us down the wrong road again.
.-= Jack Sh*t, Gettin’ Fit´s last blog ..How Committed Am I Now? =-.
Wow, Jack! Thank you for your comment and for bringing this into perspective. I absolutely would have turned this backslide into an avalanche in the past. I’m eating a good, low-point dinner and I’m thinking I might come out of this one unscathed this time (we’ll find out at weigh in on Tuesday). In fact, in the past, I probably never would have admitted to the screw up in the first place. Anyway, thanks again!
I know what you mean by the never ending battle. When you fall though you have to get right backup and try again. You have done great so do not let it get you down..
.-= Debbie´s last blog ..Puppy Love =-.
Thank you, Debbie! I’m pretty proud of myself for moving past this screw up!
You are right, it is a never ending battle, but if we keep at it enough, I think we can win the battle. I have been fighting my fat for 30 years now… I was fat from 5 years old thru age 20. At age 20 I got serious about starting a diet to lose weight and lost 60 pounds and of course I have bounced back and forth many many times over the last 30 years. I am actually in the best shape I have been in all my life right now. But I keep screwing up too, just last week I went to chinese buffet again, and one meal like that can really set me back a few steps, but luckily I got right back on track.
.-= Ron´s last blog ..What a beautiful day today =-.
Thank you for sharing your experiences, Ron! You give me hope! But is it bad that my first thought when seeing the words “chinese buffet” was “yuuuummmmmmmm”? lol