Trying Again….And Again

So did everybody have a good weekend?  Mine was pretty great all in all.  My aunt and uncle came into town on Friday, and we spent most of the weekend watching movies, playing cards (our family fave is a variation of “Oh Hell”), and other games.  I absolutely love playing cards and games, but rarely ever get to, so that was a real treat.

On Sunday, we went back to the botanical gardens here -- I’ve mentioned it many times on here as it has been one of my favorite places in Kansas City.  Unfortunately, this was our first trip since the beginning of March due to the insane heat we’ve had.  I’m not a hot weather kind of girl. I really need to get my ass back out there more regularly, though, because damn I’m out of shape.  I really need to dig my treadmill back out from the boxes in our basement, too.

There really were some beautiful flowers out there.  Here are just a few of the pics I took (click on each to enlarge):

Food-wise, I’ve done better…off and on.  Friday, good.  Saturday okay (we ordered pizza).  Sunday, not so good.  I’ll just say my aunt and uncle stopped for Krispy Kreme on their way over for breakfast and leave it at that.  But I really am trying again.  I didn’t count every bite this week, but I did eat less.  Hopefully my scale will cooperate a bit today.

And today has been decent.  I took my mom out for a late mother’s day lunch (you’ll remember most of mother’s day was spent flying back from DC).  I ended up getting grilled shrimp and broccoli, though the grilled shrimp was a bit greasier than I would have liked.  I didn’t eat it all, however.  I also tried a few of the green bean fries that my mom has been raving about (we went to TGI Friday’s).  It would figure that while I don’t really like green beans (can tolerate them more now, but we used to sneak into the kitchen as kids and hide them in the trash or in the garbage disposal), I loved the fried, breaded green bean fries.  <sigh>  Luckily, we hardly ever go there.

Dinner has been pretty light -- mostly just fruit.  Totally unusual for me, but am in one of my “not feeling like eating” moods tonight.  I’m sure, without a doubt, that that will change rapidly.

When I went grocery shopping tonight, I did good.  I only bought things that I allowed myself when I was fully on plan.  Unlike the past several months, I didn’t allow myself any cheats.  No pizza.  No ice cream.  No candy.  And you know what?  I barely even looked at them.  I don’t know what has gotten into me.

So yes, I’m trying again.  And I’ll probably have to try again, and again, and again.  Because, as we all know, this is a lifelong battle that we’re facing.  I fell.  Hard.  I’ll most likely fall again.  But I’ll try again, too.  I think that’s one of the most important things I’ve learned on this journey is to just keep trying (or just keep swimming if your name is Dory -- see below video).  Don’t give up on yourself.  I know you’ll feel discouraged at some points -- believe me I have known that feeling well in the past few weeks.  Still hating mirrors, cameras, or reflective surfaces of any kind.  But never give up on yourself.  Believe in yourself.  You can do this.  I can do this.  We can do this.