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A Big Change

Every time I think of the title of this post, I hear Julia Roberts saying “Big mistake. Big. Huge” from this scene in Pretty Woman: Hopefully this Big Change (Big, Huge)  won’t turn out to be a Big, Huge Mistake. For the past almost eight years (omg. eight. years!! – on 10/7), I’ve worked second shift – from about 4pm until midnight.  I know, pretty sucky hours, right? Overall, it actually hasn’t been too bad.  There are definitely some benefits to the hours which I’ll explain in more detail later.  I started working these hours four months before my brother died, and either [ ... ]

A Perfect Protest

Yesterday, I mentioned Brené Brown’s new blog post: The Perfect Protest. My whole life, I’ve been plagued with the desire, need, mandatory-ness of being perfect.  Or at least, I always felt that it was mandatory for me to strive for it.  Since it is, frankly, damn impossible for anyone to be perfect, and even more impossible for myself to be, I was constantly in the mode of self-frustration, self-loathing, self-disgust, etc. In fact, this song could have been my anthem for myself growing up: You all know that I admire Brené and her work tremendously.  You know that her book, “

Lil’ Bits

This is going to be another one of my little bit of everything posts, and it’s going to be a bit long, so you might just want to skim through and see if anything catches your eye that you’d like to read further. I know I’ve been a bit M.I.A. lately, and hopefully I will be able to change that soon!  I’ve been a regular on Twitter, so you can always catch me there – the randomness that I post there knows no limits. Though I’ve been feeling that I need to take a step back from even Twitter for [ ... ]

Hopeless?

So I’m up another 1.2 pounds this week.  I was actually quite a bit surprised that it wasn’t more considering we ate out practically every meal over the weekend.  Sadly, over the course of September, I have completely undone all of the work and progress that I made over the course of August (have gained more than 9 pounds in the last three weeks and September isn’t even over yet).  I’m exactly where I was at the beginning of August.  And thoroughly disgusted with myself on top of it. I’ve written about these topics so many times in the past, so [ ... ]

Trader Joe’s?

Since I joined Weight Watchers in 2006, I’ve heard over and over about how wonderful Trader Joe’s is. As far as I know, the closest one to me here in Kansas City is St. Louis – but I haven’t really checked to make sure. I just know there aren’t any within a reasonable driving distance. Well, not for long.  Check out this article: Trader Joe’s to Open Two KC-Area Stores We’re not getting one store.  We’re getting TWO!  There will be one on each side of the state line (Kansas and Missouri). So tell me, all of you lucky Trader [ ... ]
Category: Food  7 Comments

My Best Birthday

First, before I get to the details, I want to thank each of you for the wonderful happy birthday wishes you left!! You all are awesome! I know I say that over and over, but it’s only because of how true it is! Honestly, I was overwhelmed by the birthday wishes I received from people.  So many people sent me messages here, through text and voicemail, via Twitter or Facebook, that I really was just stunned (even received a happy birthday wish from Carmine Famiglietti!).  It made me realize how absolutely truly lucky a girl I am.  Sometimes you [ ... ]

Happy Birthday to Me :o)

As most of you know, tomorrow’s my birthday!  I’m turning the ripe old age of 33. I have mixed feelings about the day.  On the one hand, I mentioned that I’m always a little sad around it because of my brother.  I’m also a little wary of it, because it has pretty much ended up sucking every year for some reason or another.  Seems like something always goes wrong.  For example, last year, even though I had the day off, I still ended up having to deal with some work issues. Now on the other hand, I’m actually really looking [ ... ]

Fighting

I’m not sure what to say.  The last couple of weeks have been extremely difficult for me. Weight-wise, I’ve been eating everything in sight.  It’s not attractive, and I’m pretty disgusted with myself.  It may seem counterproductive for this blog, but I really don’t want to discuss how much I’ve gained in the past two weeks.  It sucks. I’ve really been struggling with a lot of issues in my life.  I’ve never been formally diagnosed, but I believe I’ve struggled with depression through a great portion of my life – especially high school and college.  You all know that I love books, [ ... ]
Category: Psychology  9 Comments

A Wish

First, a bit of housekeeping. If I owe you an e-mail, I can imagine that it is WAY overdue and I’m really sorry! There’s been a lot going on with me lately and things have been more on the crazy side than usual. I promise to get back to you just as soon as I can! Second, I have well over 400 spam comments in my queue right now, so if you’ve tried to comment on something and it never appeared, please try again and let me know by email or at the contact link above so [ ... ]

Foul!

Contrary to my last several posts, I am not always happy-go-lucky, cheerful Pamela.  I know, I know, it comes as a HUGE shock to you, doesn’t it?   I hope none of you passed out from the news. In fact, again contrary to my post of Tuesday, my mood over the past couple of days can only be described as foul.  I’ve done my best to keep it from affecting other people, and most of my attitude (except for when directed towards stupid people – and then only internally) has been directed back towards myself. It’s not so much that I’ve [ ... ]
Category: Psychology  3 Comments
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