
In my efforts lately to live a more bold, authentic, and whole-hearted life, I woke up one day with yet another impulse to “let the cat out of the bag” as far as my blog is concerned.
This may surprise you, because I’ve often written before about how I sometimes wish that no one I’m close with in my “real life” knew about my blog. I’ve mentioned that sometimes it makes me question how open I want to be about things. It’s hard letting yourself be this vulnerable and this open.
Unfortunately, I happened to mention this impulse on Twitter and ended [ ... ]

You may want to get comfy – kick back, relax – this is going to be a long one.
For the past many, many years, I remembered a friend of mine once said something along the lines of “women are at their best in their 30s.” I’ve always held that in the back of my mind, and when I turned 30, I decided that that was going to be the case for me. I was going to do my best to make them the best freaking years of my life.
I’ve mentioned many times that I’ve been shut down for [ ... ]

Thank you all so much for all of the supportive comments and messages I’ve received. You all are WONDERFUL. That’s all I have to say. That and thank you thank you thank you. I’m still freaked, and am sure I will be even more freaked tomorrow, but right now, I’m doing okay. I’m doing some deep breathing as some of you suggested and am trying to visualize pushing the fear out. Also repeating I can do this, I can do this, I can do this. LOL
If things go well tomorrow (please god let them go well), I’m going to have [ ... ]

Hi folks! I hope you all had a fabulous week.
Overall, mine was pretty good. I had a few low moments – a few things that are bothering me kind of snuck up on me here and there, but I also had a lot of fun.
First, TEDxKC was Thursday night. I met some friends beforehand at the Nelson Art Gallery (where TEDx was held) and since we were there early, we walked around checking things out for a bit before TEDx started. We first hit the room with the real mummy and then looked at some of the ancient artifacts, after [ ... ]

When I was in high school, I was known to my closest friends as “Pessimistic Pam.” In our Winnie the Pooh fantasy, I was, inevitably, Eeyore. The nickname carried through into college, as well.
Lately, though, I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about myself, my life, and the universe in general and I’ve realized something. I was never all that pessimistic. It wasn’t necessarily an act either, however.
In thinking tonight, I realized that while I always thought I was truly pessimistic, there was a part of me that, no matter how many times I’ve been crushed or slapped back down [ ... ]

Well, it’s everyone’s favorite morning! Monday morning! Okay, that was a lame attempt at bringing a bit of cheer into this Monday morning.
It’s currently 10am. Yes, I am supposed to be sleeping. In fact, I should have been in bed about five hours ago. <SIGH>
Project “Get Pamela Some Sleep” didn’t go so well last week, unfortunately. There were two days in which I got about 10 hrs each, but the rest of the week seemed to follow my usual pattern. In fact, Thursday night, I only got about 3 1/2 hrs. Friday night, I got absolutely NO sleep. Then on [ ... ]

Hi guys!
You’re not going to believe it, but I actually cleared out my Google Reader last night. Now, admittedly, there were over 1000+ posts (I’m not sure exactly as that is what it maxes out at), so I wasn’t able to read all of them, but I did read quite a few. Of course, now it is back up to around 30, but hopefully this will be a first dip of my toe back into the blog-reading world.
Food-wise, this week isn’t going so great. And the scale is responding in kind (but it can go suck my big toe). All-in-all, [ ... ]

In yet another effort to keep myself up as late as possible, I came across this list of 99 things over at Angelia’s site “
Amelioration.” Would love for you guys to fill it out as well if you’re interested, and if you do, please leave me a link! Since I can never keep my mouth shut, I’ve made comments on some of the things that I haven’t done, as well. The bolded ones are ones that I have done.
1. Started your own blog – (Who me? A blog? Huh? No way.)
2. Slept under the stars
3. Played in a band
4. [ ... ]

AND I WAS THERE!!!!!!!!
This was an excited me before we left for the game:
You know the best part about it? I bought that t-shirt at the National World War I Museum back on Memorial Day weekend. It was the weekend that we went to the dinosaur exhibit. It didn’t fit when I bought it! It was WAY too tight! AND NOW IT FITS! Which is just awesome because it has a picture of Snoopy on it as the Flying Ace.
(Note: I went ahead and bought it back then knowing that it wouldn’t fit, because I [ ... ]

So if you’re reading this on my site, you may have noticed a slight theme switch. For the most part, I personally really like it. I wanted something bold to represent my attitude towards wanting to live a bolder life. Of course, there are little things that kind of irk me that I will be stewing over and working on to see if I can figure out. Not the least of which is why I get an error when clicking on some of my individual posts. So if you happen to have a comment on one of them that you [ ... ]

Is anyone else as glad as I am that it’s Thursday? That’s one day closer to Friday!
Unfortunately, I’m either fighting off a head cold or have just been slammed by allergies. Last night, I was thinking head cold. Today, I’m thinking probably allergies. Right now, I’m struggling with really watery, burning eyes. Not too pleasant when you’re at work. I’ll be fine, though.
I got my license plate all renewed today and will get to keep the same personalized plate. I’m glad about that, because I kind of like it.
Overall, it’s been kind of a rough day [ ... ]

Yeah, I had no idea what to call this post, as it’s just another random mish-mash of things going through my head.
I’m still on plan! WHOOHOO! No slipping up at all. <SHOCKED>
I’m getting really excited about the Manchester United v. KC Wizards soccer game on Sunday. Just really dreading the heat! It’s at Arrowhead Stadium (Home of the KC Chiefs) and I’ve never been there before in my life even though I grew up here in KC.
I’m also excited about *hopefully* attending
TEDxKC. I wouldn’t be so excited if it was just the event itself, but