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Who Is This Person?

Pamela
20
May 2010
Okay, guys, I’m putting out an APB. I don’t know where she went, if someone took her, or if she’s running amok somewhere, but Pamela is missing. For the past two weeks, I haven’t wanted to eat. Let me repeat that. I. Haven’t. Wanted. To. Eat. Yes, me.  Me of the glorious food addiction.  Me who looks at food like it’s heroin or crack.  Me who would spend 23 and 3/4 hours a day gorging herself if she could. But I just haven’t been interested.  It’s the oddest thing.  Of course, I’m not expecting it to last, but I’m baffled.  I mean, at dinner tonight, I [ ... ]
Category: Psychology  5 Comments

Full Circle

Pamela
18
May 2010
I have to thank Rebecca for bringing me back to the purpose of my blog. Over the weekend, I posted about our trip to the Steamboat Arabia exhibit and mentioned that when it was discovered, it was discovered underneath a farm field in Kansas. Hopefully Rebecca won’t mind, but I’m going to quote her here: “…under a farm field in Kansas.” Now THAT is something. Hard to believe there was so much great stuff hidden under a layer of dirt! Kinda makes me think about the good stuff still waiting to be found under my, er, fat layer. LOL. [ ... ]
Category: Psychology  2 Comments

Doing It All Over Again

Pamela
14
May 2010
We all know that losing weight can be really difficult.  Especially if you have a food addiction or are a chronic overeater.  Over the past few months, I’ve learned that it’s even harder to do it again. I’ve explained before that I’ve been overweight since about the 3rd grade.  I still don’t know what the turning point was, where I went from a skinny child running around in tube tops to being so overweight that the kids in my class called me a “beach ball.”  But there was one, and regardless of what brought it on, that’s what happened to me. I [ ... ]
Category: Lbs. the Movie, Psychology, Weight Watchers / Weight Loss  10 Comments

Weight as a Shield

Pamela
04
May 2010
A while back, I posted about why I thought I had regained 80+ pounds.  One of the things I mentioned was this: And I got scared.  There were things that I would potentially have to start dealing with that I wasn’t comfortable dealing with or even thinking about. While that statement encompasses several different issues, one of the ones I was thinking of is dating. I’ve seen it written on enough blogs and enough times on the Weight Watchers message boards to know that I’m not alone in this.  I, myself, have never been raped or anything [ ... ]
Category: Psychology  7 Comments

The “Yeah, buts”

Pamela
08
Apr 2010
We all know them.  We’re all familiar with them.  They’re the soul-suckers.  They’re the self-esteem killers.  They’re the joy snatchers.  They’re the little words that can drain pleasure and replace it with depression in a single instant.  Along with comparison, they are another thief of happiness. They’re the “yeah, buts.” The “yeah, buts” can invade just about any part of your existence.  From your work, to your hobbies, to your weight, to just about any good event in your life. For example, here are a few of the weight loss “yeah, buts” in my life right now. I’ve lost 90.5 pounds. Yeah, but [ ... ]
Category: Psychology  4 Comments

Why I Regained 80 Plus Lbs.

Pamela
01
Apr 2010
This is really hard for me to admit, but I’ve been in kind of a bad place the past few weeks.  I’ve done my best to hide it from you all – maybe I succeeded, maybe I didn’t.  Maybe it shone through anyway. There are many reasons for it – some measurable, that I can pinpoint to a specific cause, and some not. Based on the subject of this post, you may choose to believe that it is solely based on the weight that I’ve regained.  Part of it is.  Maybe part of it is [ ... ]
Category: Brene Brown, Lbs. the Movie, Psychology, Weight Watchers / Weight Loss  15 Comments

Lbs. the Movie and The NY Daily News and Changes

Pamela
23
Mar 2010
In the latest “Lbs.” news – because, seriously, did you think I could let a day go by without mentioning it – there was a fantastic article about it in the NY Daily News. (I got this image from Lbs.’s Facebook page – click on image to see it.) You can read it on the web
Category: Books / Movies / Entertainment, Lbs. the Movie, Psychology  5 Comments

My Revelation

Pamela
22
Mar 2010
As usual, I should be sleeping…but am I?  Of course not! First, I finished day 8 of my 21 day treadmill challenge last night and oh, man, was it hard.  I SO did not want to get on that thing last night.  It made me kind of wish and think that maybe I should have eased my way into a treadmill routine before trying this challenge, because I’m a bit afraid that I’m getting burned out.  But I’m going to see this thing through.  I want to be able to say that I finished something worthwhile.  So here are the stats: 3/14 [ ... ]
Category: Life in General, Psychology  13 Comments

Perfect? Not Moi.

Pamela
19
Mar 2010
So while that statement is pretty obvious, especially considering I regained over 80 lbs in a little over a year, sometimes reminders of that fact come back and slap you in the face. When I was on Weight Watchers for the two years that I lost the great majority of my weight, I wasn’t perfect as far as what I was eating, but I was perfectly on plan, perfectly within my points. The past two weeks, I’ve been perfect in that way. Today, I wasn’t.  I caved.  I’m here to admit it. I’ve been having a really hard time sleeping lately and my anxiety [ ... ]
Category: Psychology  6 Comments

What to Write. . .What to Write

Pamela
10
Mar 2010
So often is the case that a person has writer’s block and can’t think of a darn thing to say.  (That happens to me anyway.)  Tonight, I have the exact opposite problem.  I’ve actually had this problem for a while now and I blame my anxiety issues for it.  I feel like my brain is running (why can’t my body follow?) in a million different directions at once and can’t stop to settle on any one idea -- because, well, there are a million more out there to consider! Sometimes this is fun, sometimes not so much.  When it comes to putting [ ... ]
Category: Psychology  7 Comments

Hold on for one more day

Pamela
10
Sep 2009
In further proof that I am indeed the biggest klutz (or idiot, depending on how you want to look at it) in the world, I just succeeding in scalding the inside of my mouth and throat with hot tomato soup.  I had just heated up one of those Campbell’s Soup at Hand cups at work and was walking back to my desk.  I was so deep in thought that I just lifted it to my mouth and swallowed.  I think several shades of “holy crap” went through my head as it went down.  Now I’m guzzling cold water and praying [ ... ]
Category: Books / Movies / Entertainment, Psychology  6 Comments

I Am Not a Bad Person

Pamela
21
Jul 2009
Prepare yourself for a bit of honesty.  It’s no secret that I’ve been a bit discouraged lately by my apparent inability to stick with “the Plan.”  Unfortunately, I’ve found myself falling into some of the same old behaviors and traps that used to be a part of my personal makeup. When I started Weight Watchers, I joined in 2004 after I saw the success of a good friend who made her goal weight.  I joined online, but just couldn’t seem to get myself going.  It was a year after my brother’s death and while I wanted to lose weight – as [ ... ]
Category: Psychology  8 Comments

New Fears

Pamela
11
Mar 2009
I peeked at the scale before I hopped in the shower this afternoon, and to my surprise, I was down another 1.8 pounds since my weigh-in yesterday.  I know that in all probability it is just a fluke or the body’s natural ups and downs, but I’m determined to make it through the rest of the week and weekend without blowing it. Disney navel oranges have made it on my list of things I’ll never buy again (along with Vitamuffins – which unlike the rest of the population, I can’t stand).  Don’t get me wrong, they taste incredible, but they are [ ... ]
Category: Psychology  7 Comments

The Ravenous Feed Me Monster Strikes Again

Pamela
09
Feb 2009
I have securely destroyed the almost five pound loss that I had last week.  In fact, if my peek at the scale today has any validity, then I can expect to gain about 8 pounds this week.  My little incident with my cut finger the previous Sunday sent me into “I don’t care” mode.  Then on Thursday and Friday, I barely ate anything since I was feeling so crappy, but then over the weekend, I more than made up for it. I’ve been considering a name change.  Perhaps my middle name should be changed to “Pizza” or “Kit-Kat.”  Or maybe even [ ... ]
Category: Psychology  7 Comments

“Stinkin Thinkin”

Pamela
18
Jan 2009
Man, I’m just on a roll this weekend – I apparently can’t get myself to shut up! I just had to give a big shout-out to Katschi (Karen) and share a statement she wrote in her most recent post. Being obese is more about stinkin thinkin issues than having too much cake, anyway. As I told her, I think this is the best line I’ve read lately in summing up our weight loss struggles. I’ve heard that for a lot of people who have never had weight problems or struggled with their weight that they just don’t get it.  To them, it’s [ ... ]
Category: Psychology  8 Comments
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