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Doing It All Over Again

We all know that losing weight can be really difficult.  Especially if you have a food addiction or are a chronic overeater.  Over the past few months, I’ve learned that it’s even harder to do it again. I’ve explained before that I’ve been overweight since about the 3rd grade.  I still don’t know what the turning point was, where I went from a skinny child running around in tube tops to being so overweight that the kids in my class called me a “beach ball.”  But there was one, and regardless of what brought it on, that’s what happened to me. I [ ... ]

Weight as a Shield

A while back, I posted about why I thought I had regained 80+ pounds.  One of the things I mentioned was this: And I got scared.  There were things that I would potentially have to start dealing with that I wasn’t comfortable dealing with or even thinking about. While that statement encompasses several different issues, one of the ones I was thinking of is dating. I’ve seen it written on enough blogs and enough times on the Weight Watchers message boards to know that I’m not alone in this.  I, myself, have never been raped or anything [ ... ]
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The “Yeah, buts”

We all know them.  We’re all familiar with them.  They’re the soul-suckers.  They’re the self-esteem killers.  They’re the joy snatchers.  They’re the little words that can drain pleasure and replace it with depression in a single instant.  Along with comparison, they are another thief of happiness. They’re the “yeah, buts.” The “yeah, buts” can invade just about any part of your existence.  From your work, to your hobbies, to your weight, to just about any good event in your life. For example, here are a few of the weight loss “yeah, buts” in my life right now. I’ve lost 90.5 pounds. Yeah, but [ ... ]
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Why I Regained 80 Plus Lbs.

This is really hard for me to admit, but I’ve been in kind of a bad place the past few weeks.  I’ve done my best to hide it from you all – maybe I succeeded, maybe I didn’t.  Maybe it shone through anyway. There are many reasons for it – some measurable, that I can pinpoint to a specific cause, and some not. Based on the subject of this post, you may choose to believe that it is solely based on the weight that I’ve regained.  Part of it is.  Maybe part of it is [ ... ]

Lbs. the Movie and The NY Daily News and Changes

In the latest “Lbs.” news – because, seriously, did you think I could let a day go by without mentioning it – there was a fantastic article about it in the NY Daily News. (I got this image from Lbs.’s Facebook page – click on image to see it.) You can read it on the web

My Revelation

As usual, I should be sleeping…but am I?  Of course not! First, I finished day 8 of my 21 day treadmill challenge last night and oh, man, was it hard.  I SO did not want to get on that thing last night.  It made me kind of wish and think that maybe I should have eased my way into a treadmill routine before trying this challenge, because I’m a bit afraid that I’m getting burned out.  But I’m going to see this thing through.  I want to be able to say that I finished something worthwhile.  So here are the stats: 3/14 [ ... ]

Perfect? Not Moi.

So while that statement is pretty obvious, especially considering I regained over 80 lbs in a little over a year, sometimes reminders of that fact come back and slap you in the face. When I was on Weight Watchers for the two years that I lost the great majority of my weight, I wasn’t perfect as far as what I was eating, but I was perfectly on plan, perfectly within my points. The past two weeks, I’ve been perfect in that way. Today, I wasn’t.  I caved.  I’m here to admit it. I’ve been having a really hard time sleeping lately and my anxiety [ ... ]
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What to Write. . .What to Write

So often is the case that a person has writer’s block and can’t think of a darn thing to say.  (That happens to me anyway.)  Tonight, I have the exact opposite problem.  I’ve actually had this problem for a while now and I blame my anxiety issues for it.  I feel like my brain is running (why can’t my body follow?) in a million different directions at once and can’t stop to settle on any one idea – because, well, there are a million more out there to consider! Sometimes this is fun, sometimes not so much.  When it comes to putting [ ... ]
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Hold on for one more day

In further proof that I am indeed the biggest klutz (or idiot, depending on how you want to look at it) in the world, I just succeeding in scalding the inside of my mouth and throat with hot tomato soup.  I had just heated up one of those Campbell’s Soup at Hand cups at work and was walking back to my desk.  I was so deep in thought that I just lifted it to my mouth and swallowed.  I think several shades of “holy crap” went through my head as it went down.  Now I’m guzzling cold water and praying [ ... ]

I Am Not a Bad Person

Prepare yourself for a bit of honesty.  It’s no secret that I’ve been a bit discouraged lately by my apparent inability to stick with “the Plan.”  Unfortunately, I’ve found myself falling into some of the same old behaviors and traps that used to be a part of my personal makeup. When I started Weight Watchers, I joined in 2004 after I saw the success of a good friend who made her goal weight.  I joined online, but just couldn’t seem to get myself going.  It was a year after my brother’s death and while I wanted to lose weight – as [ ... ]
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New Fears

I peeked at the scale before I hopped in the shower this afternoon, and to my surprise, I was down another 1.8 pounds since my weigh-in yesterday.  I know that in all probability it is just a fluke or the body’s natural ups and downs, but I’m determined to make it through the rest of the week and weekend without blowing it. Disney navel oranges have made it on my list of things I’ll never buy again (along with Vitamuffins – which unlike the rest of the population, I can’t stand).  Don’t get me wrong, they taste incredible, but they are [ ... ]
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The Ravenous Feed Me Monster Strikes Again

I have securely destroyed the almost five pound loss that I had last week.  In fact, if my peek at the scale today has any validity, then I can expect to gain about 8 pounds this week.  My little incident with my cut finger the previous Sunday sent me into “I don’t care” mode.  Then on Thursday and Friday, I barely ate anything since I was feeling so crappy, but then over the weekend, I more than made up for it. I’ve been considering a name change.  Perhaps my middle name should be changed to “Pizza” or “Kit-Kat.”  Or maybe even [ ... ]
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“Stinkin Thinkin”

Man, I’m just on a roll this weekend – I apparently can’t get myself to shut up! I just had to give a big shout-out to Katschi (Karen) and share a statement she wrote in her most recent post. Being obese is more about stinkin thinkin issues than having too much cake, anyway. As I told her, I think this is the best line I’ve read lately in summing up our weight loss struggles. I’ve heard that for a lot of people who have never had weight problems or struggled with their weight that they just don’t get it.  To them, it’s [ ... ]
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I’m Apparently Somewhat of a Hypocrite

When I went to see my primary care doctor on Monday, and told him the meds were making no ground on the exhaustion/anxiety, I could just about see him mentally throwing his hands up in the air.  I specifically asked him if he thought that there could be some other medical cause for it all and he said, “No, I don’t think so.”  Well, phbbbt to that.  I do see my endocrinologist on Tuesday and will go to have more bloodwork (to double-check results) tomorrow.  It was kind of funny to hear him say (after looking at my chart) that [ ... ]

Confession Time

Through the fog of my fatigue, I’ve slowly been trying to catch up on some blog-reading – I know I’m way, way behind.  And while I care about each and every one of you, I just haven’t had the energy to keep up lately.  I’m trying to get caught up, though, because I want hear all about what each of you have been up to.  So I am sorry if I haven’t been as supportive lately.  I do think about each of you often. I did read a couple of blogs today that really struck a chord with me.  The first [ ... ]
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